The Dead Wall
By H. B. Marriott Watson
THE dawn stared raw and yellow out of the east at Rosewarne.
Its bleak and ugly face smouldered through morose vapours.
The wind blew sharp against the windows, shaking them in their
casements. The prospect from that lonely chamber overawed him
with menace ; it glowered upon him. The houses in the square,
wrapped in immitigable gloom, were to him ominous memorials of
death. They frightened him into a formless panic. Anchored in
that soundless sea, they terrified him with their very stillness. In
dreary ranks they rose, a great high wall of doom, lifting their
lank chimneys to the dreadful sky. They obsessed him with fore-
bodings to which he could put no term, for which he could find no
reason. Shrouded under its great terror, his poor mind fell into
deeper depression under the influence of those malign and ugly
signals. He strove to withdraw his thoughts and direct them upon
some different subject. He wrenched them round to the contem-
plation of his room, his walls, his wife. A dull pain throbbed in
the back of his head. He repeated aloud the topics upon which
he would have his mind revolve, but the words rang in his ears
without meaning. He touched the pictures on the wall, he spoke
their names, he covered his face and strained hard to recapture
coherent thought. The subjects mocked him : they were too
nimble and elusive for his tired brain ; they danced out of reach,
and he followed blindly till a deeper darkness fell. They grew
faint and shadowy, like wraiths in a mist, and he pursued the
glancing shadows. Finally, his brain grew blank ; it was as if
consciousness had lapsed ; and he found himself regarding a fly that
crawled upon the pane. Outside lay the oppression of that
appalling scene that horrified him—he knew not why.
Rosewarne was growing used to these nervous exhibitions. This
unequal struggle had been repeated through many weeks, but he
had always so far come out of it with personal security. The
dread that some day he would fail continually haunted him, and
increased the strain of the conflict. He wondered what lay at the
back of this horrible condition, and shuddered as he wondered.
And he knew now that he must not let himself adrift, but must
dispose the devils by every means. He broke into a whistle, and
moved about the room carelessly. It was a lively stave from the
streets that his lips framed, but it conveyed to him no sense of sound.
He perambulated the chamber with a false air of cheerfulness. He
eyed the bed with his head askew, winking as if to share a jest with
it. He patted the pillows, arranging and disarranging them in
turn. He laughed softly, merrily, emptily. He seized the dumb-
bells from the mantelpiece and whirled them about his head ; he
chafed his hands, he rubbed his flesh. Little by little the blood
moved with more content through his body, and the pulse of his
heart sank slowly.
Outside, the dawn brightened and the wind came faster. Rose-
warne looked forth and nodded ; then he turned and left the room,
his face flashing as he passed the mirror, like the distempered face
of a corpse. Across the landing he paused before a door, and,
bending to the keyhole, listened ; little low sounds of life came to
his ears, and suddenly his haggard face crowded with emotions.
He rose and softly descended the stairs to his study. The house
lay in the quiet of sleep, and within the solitude of that rich room
he, too, was as still as the sleepers. The inferior parts of the
window formed a blind of stained glass, but the grey light flowed
through the upper panes into a magnificent wilderness. The cold
ashes of the fire, by which he had sat at his task late into the
morning, lay still within the grate. The little ensigns of a human
presence, the scattered papers, the dirty hearth, all the instruments
of his work, looked mean and squalid within the spacious dignity
of that high room. He lit the gas and sat down to his table,
moving his restless fingers among the papers. It was as if his
members arrogantly claimed their independence, and refused the
commands of a weak brain. His mind had abrogated. His hands
shifted furtively like the hands of a pickpocket : they wandered
among the papers and returned to him. The clock droned out the
hour slowly, and at that he started, shook his wits together, and
began in haste to turn about the documents. He knew now the
sheet of which he had sent his hands in quest. Large and blue
and awful, it had been his ghost throughout the night. He could
see the figures scrawled upon it in his own tremulous writing, rows
upon rows of them, thin and sparse and self-respecting at the top,
but to the close, fevered, misshapen, and reckless, fighting and
jostling in a crowd for space upon the page. He laid his hand
upon the horrible thing ; he opened his ledgers ; and sat decipher-
ing once more his own ruin.
The tragedy lay bare to his shrinking eyes ; it leaped forth at
him from the blurred and confused figures. There was no need
to rehearse them ; he had reiterated them upon a hundred scrolls
in a hundred various ways these many weeks. They had become
his enemies, to deceive whom he had invoked the wreck of a fine
intelligence. He had used all the wiles and dodges of a cunning
mind to entrap them to his service. He had spent a weary cam-
paign upon them, storming them with fresh troops of figures,
deploying and ambuscading with all the subterfuge of a subtle
business mind. But there now, as at the outset of his hopeless
fight, the issue remained unchanged ; the terrible sum of his sin
abided, unsubtracted, undivided, unabridged. As he regarded it
at this moment it seemed to assume quickly a vaster proportion.
His crime cried out upon him, calling for vengeance in his ears.
Seizing a pen, eagerly, vacantly, he set forth anew to recompose
Rosewarne worked on for a couple of hours, holding his quiver-
ing fingers to the paper by the sheer remnants of his will. His
brain refused its offices, and he stumbled among the numerical
problems with false and blundering steps. To add one sum to
another he must ransack the litter of his mind ; the knowledge
that runs glibly to the tongue of a child he must rediscover
by persistent and arduous concentration. But still he kept
his seat, and jotted down his cyphers. About him the house
stirred slowly ; noises passed his door and faded ; the grim and
yellow sun rose higher and struck upon the table, contending with
the gaslight. But Rosewarne paid no heed ; he wrestled with his
numb brain and his shivering fingers, wrestled to the close of the
page ; where once more the hateful figures gleamed in bold ink,
menacing and blinking, his old ghost renewed and invested with
The pen dropped from his hand, his head fell upon his arms,
and as he lay in that helpless attitude of despair that protests not,
of misery that can make no appeal, the door fell softly open and his
” Freddy, whatever are you doing here like this ?” she said, with
surprise in her voice. ” Have you gone to sleep ?”
Rosewarne lifted his head sharply and turned to her. Athwart
the pallor of his face gleamed for an instant a soft flush of pleasure,
and his dull eyes lit up with affection.
” I was doing some work, Dorothy,” said he, ” and I was
Mrs. Rosewarne took a step nearer. Her fine grey eyes
regarded him with wonder and with inquiry, and in her voice a
little impatience mingled with a certain kindliness.
” It’s very absurd your working like this,” she said, ” and in
this cold room without a fire ? Aren’t you coming to break-
Rosewarne got up from his chair. ” Why, yes,” he laughed.
” Of course. I didn’t realise it was ready. Oh, Dolly dear,” he
paused and put his hand to his head with a look of perplexity ;
then his face lightened. ” Dolly, I’ve got something for you.”
” For me !” she asked, and the curve of her lips drooped in a
pretty smile of curiosity.
He fumbled in a drawer and withdrew a packet.
“Yes, darling. You know what day it is. It’s your birthday,
and you’re twenty—”
” Oh, for goodness’ sake, Freddy, don’t,” she interrupted with a
touch of impatience ; and then opening the packet examined the
contents with care. The light dawned in her eyes. ” How very
pretty ! I was in need of a bracelet. Freddy, you are a good
boy. But come, you mustn’t catch cold. Come into the dining-
room, and get warm, you simpleton.”
She patted him softly on the head, and fell again to the scrutiny
of her present. Rosewarne did not move, but watched her,
smiling. ” Aren’t you coming ?” she asked, looking up at last.
His eyes met hers and pleaded with them dumbly, but she made
no sign, returning once more to her jewels.
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” Isn’t it worth a kiss, Dolly ?” he asked softly.
Mrs. Rosewarne looked at him vaguely. ” What ! Oh, well,
yes, if you like, I suppose.” She bent towards him, and he touched
her cheek gently. ” But it was very nice of you to think of me,”
she said, withdrawing. ” Come to breakfast now.”
Rosewarne followed her into the breakfast-room, with a fresh
access of impotence. He fumbled with his chair ; the napkin
fluttered out of his fingers ; he pulled a plate to him, and the
silver rattled under his clumsy action ; a fork clattered to the floor.
Mrs. Rosewarne winced.
” How very stupid you are to-day, Freddy !” she said pettishly.
He laughed a short meaningless laugh, and begged her pardon.
Her movements were full of gentle grace ; her breath came
easily and with the best breeding. Her teacup tinkled sweetly,
and only that and the soft sussurra of her sleeves marked her stately
presence at the table. She looked at the bracelet comfortably, and
lifted her cup to her lips. Rosewarne glanced at her timidly.
The sickly light shone clear upon the fine contours of her placid
face ; the evil magic of that dreary day was transmuted upon her
hair. She set down her cup and met his eyes.
” What a dreadful colour you are !” she said critically. The
ghastly yellow of his face repelled her. ” I wish you would set
better, and not rise at such ridiculous hours.”
“I slept ill, Dolly,” he answered with a faint smile. He
resumed his breakfast feverishly. The knuckles of his hands
seemed to stand out awkwardly ; his elbows waggled ; he mouthed
at his food in a frightened fashion.
” Good heavens, Freddy,” cried his wife, wrinkling her nose in
distaste, ” why do you eat like that ? It’s more like an animal
than a human being. Your manners are becoming perfectly
He started and dropped his knife. ” What the devil does it
matter how I eat ?” he exclaimed angrily. ” You—you—”
His ideas faded from him, and he sat staring at her in vacant
indignation. Then he put his hand to his head. ” Oh, forgive
me, Dolly ; forgive me, please. I’m tired and—”
” My dear man,” broke in Mrs. Rosewarne coldly, ” if you
will make yourself ill, what can you expect ?” She unfolded a
morning paper and ran her eyes down the columns ; Rosewarne
sat looking across the room into the fire. Suddenly she called to
him in a new voice. ” Mr. Maclagan came to town yesterday,
Freddy, and paid a visit to Downing Street.”
” Yes ?” he said, starting again.
She drew down the paper and looked at him over the edge, her
eyes filled with some excitement.
” Do you hear, Freddy dear ? Now is your chance to make
the arrangement final.”
He gazed at her, his face contorted in a desperate attempt to
concentrate his thoughts upon her words. What was she saying ?
And what did it mean ?
” Freddy, don’t you hear ?” she cried again in a voice in which
impatience blended with a certain eagerness. She leaned forward
and put a hand upon his arm. He clutched at it feverishly with
his fingers. ” Lord Hambleton is favourable, I know, and it only
remains to secure Maclagan,” she went on quickly. ” He, you
know, was inclined ro agree when you saw him before. I’m
sure that the nail is ready for the hammer. There is South
Wiltshire, where you are known, and no one yet settled upon by
the Party. See, dear ; you must call on him to-day, and that, with
another cheque for the Party, should place the matter beyond
doubt. Freddy ! Freddy ! Don’t you hear what I’m saying.
For goodness’ sake, don’t look like a corpse, if you are ill.”
” Yes, yes, Dolly,” said Rosewarne hurriedly.
” And for the love of decency, don’t Dolly me,” said Mrs.
Rosewarne with a petulant movement of her shoulders. ” It’s
bad enough to have to answer to an elderly Quaker name like
Rosewarne got up from the table. ” For God’s sake, be civil
to me, if you can’t be kind,” he said sharply. She regarded him
coldly. ” What is it you want ?” he asked.
Mrs. Rosewarne rapped her knuckles angrily upon the table.
” I imagined we had made that pretty clear between us long
ago,” she said with a sarcastic emphasis; ” we agreed that you
were to go into Parliament, and we laid our plans to that end.
The only thing wanting was the particular seat, and now it’s found
you ask me what I’m talking about.”
She looked at him with placid disdain. Rosewarne shuddered ;
he remembered now, as in a dream, the ambitions she had formed
” No, no, dear,” he said. ” Tell me. It’s all right. I’ll see
Lord—Lord Hambleton. The—”
Mrs. Rosewarne’s expression turned swiftly to complacency.
” No,” she said, ” leave him to me, Freddy. I shall see him
this afternoon at the Charters’s. You must see Maclagan to-day,
and we’ll meet and talk the matter over at dinner.”
She smiled upon him with a tolerant air of patronage. Rose-
warne stood by the window, restlessly twitching his fingers.
” You will not be in to lunch ?” he asked, dully.
” No ; I’m going to the Charters’s. We have each a long day
before us. It’s a sort of crisis in our lives. I’m tired of this
undistinguished competence. Any one can be the partner in a
bank. It is the House that opens the gate to success.”
She rose and swept her skirts behind her with a motion of her
arm. She regarded herself in the mirror with a face of satisfac-
tion, directing with nimble fingers an errant lock of her hair.
” And now you’ll be off, I suppose,” she said, and turned on him
laughing. ” Well, Freddy, pluck up your heart and speak your
best ; you have a tongue as neat as any one when you like. Don’t
wear so lugubrious a countenance, dear—come !”
She kissed him lightly on the forehead, laying her hands on his
shoulders, her eyes sparkling with excitement. Rosewarne put
out his arms and caught her. His eyes devoured her. ” Kiss me
again, Dolly,” he sputtered. ” Kiss me again. Kiss me on the
She laughed, a faint colour rose in her cheeks, and she struggled
in his clutch. ” Dolly, Dolly!” he pleaded. A frown of em-
barrassment gathered in her forehead.
” Do let me go,” she said sharply.
He obeyed ; his arms fell to his sides ; wistfully he watched her
withdraw. Stately in her flowing, rustling robes, receding from
him, she sailed through the doorway, and with the loss of that fine
vision the light and the flush fell from him, and all that remained
was an ignoble figure with discoloured cheeks and sunken head.
In that moment and with the chill of that departing grace fresh
upon him, he regarded his tragic position plainly and without
illusion. The poor rags of his last unvoiced hopes dropped from
his outcast soul. He had deferred the story of his ruin, in part
out of shame, but much, too, out of pity, and because of some shreds
of confidence in his own fortunes. And yet, implicit in that
silence he had kept, but unacknowledged in his own thoughts, had
been the fear of her demeanour in the crisis. He knew her for a
worldly woman, clad in great aspirations ; he had taken the
measure of her trivial vanities ; he had sounded the shallows of her
passionless heart ; and still he had trusted, still he had nursed an
empty faith in her affection. But now at this slight repulse
somehow the props swayed beneath his rickety platform, and his
thoughts ran in a darker current of despair. The bankruptcy, the
guilt, the horror of his defalcations, were no longer the Evil to
come, but merely now the steps by which he mounted to the real
tragedy of his life.
Rosewarne quietly took up his hat, and drawing on his coat,
passed out of the house and walked slowly towards the City.
It was upon two o’clock when Mrs. Rosewarne descended from
the portico of her house and was enclosed within her landau by
the footman. She was in a fervour which became her admirably ;
her cheeks were touched with points of colour, and her fine eyes
brightened as with the flash of steel. She itched to try the temper
of her diplomacy, and, as she entered the drawing-room of her
hostess, the thought that she was well equipped for the encounter
filled her anew with zest. Her eyes, piercing from that handsome
face, challenged the luncheon-party. Mrs. Charters gave her a
loud effusive welcome, as the beauty of the entertainment, and
a general murmur of greeting seemed to salute her ears. Stepping
a pace from the company and engaging easily with her hostess,
Mrs. Rosewarne denoted the guests with sharp glances. Of her
own disposition at the table she could have no certainty ; the
occasion was urgent ; and with a nod she summoned Lord Hamble-
ton to her side.
” And you, Lord Hambleton !” said she with a pretty air of
surprise, ” why, I heard you were in Scotland.”
” Scotland !” he said, shrugging his shoulders and smiling.
” What ! Scotland in January, and the session like a drawn sword
at one’s heart.”
” Ah !” she replied, ” I had forgotten the session. And yet
my poor husband talks enough about it.”
” Indeed !”
” Indeed !” said the Whip with good-humour, ” there is still
some one, then, who bothers about us. ”
She lifted her shoulders slightly, as one who would disclaim a
personal participation in the folly.
” Doesn’t every one ?” she asked.
” Why, we talk of ourselves,” said he laughing, ” but I did not
know any one else took an interest in us. We have outlived our
time, you see. We are early Victorians, so to speak. Representa-
tive government is a glorious tradition, like the English flag or
Balaclava—very brave, very wonderful, but very unimportant. I
know we bulk largely in the newspapers. It is our métier. But
I wonder why. The habit exists when the utility is fled.
Is it because the advertisers love us, do you think ? It is
the only reason I can conceive. We all owe our being to the
Births, Deaths and Marriages. The servant-girl, my dear Mrs.
Rosewarne, confers upon me the fame of a Tuesday’s issue, for
the shilling she expends upon a ‘ Wanted.’ Alas !” He pulled
his features into an expression of dismay. ” When the hoarding and
the sky-sign come in we shall go out.”
Mrs. Rosewarne laughed gently, a demure intelligence shining
from her eyes.
” And you,” said he quizzically, ” you don’t care for us ?”
” Oh, I !” she retorted with a sigh. ” Yes, I talk of you.
I am obliged to talk of you over the hearth-rug. I assure
you I have all your names by rote, and rattle them off like
” Ah !” said Lord Hambleton, peering into her face curiously ;
” I can appreciate your tone. You are weary of us.”
” Frankly, yes,” said she, smiling. They both laughed, and he
made a gesture of apology.
” Why ?” he asked.
The voice of a butler cried from the doorway ; there was a
sudden stir in the room, and then a little hush.
” We are separated, alas !” said Lord Hambleton.
” Not at all,” said Mrs. Charters, suddenly, at his elbow. ” I
believe you are neighbours.”
Mrs. Rosewarne’s heart bounded in her side, and then beat
placidly with its accustomed rhythm. Lord Hambleton looked at
her. ” That’s very nice,” he murmured.
At the table he turned to her with an immediate air of interest.
” Why?” he repeated.
Her gaze had wandered across the table with a profession of
gentle indifference. She was surveying the guests with a remote
abstraction ; plucked out of which she glanced at him with a
pretty hint of embarrassment, her forehead frowning as though to
recover the topic of their conversation.
” Why ?” she echoed ; and then : ” Oh yes,” said she, smiling as
out of a memory regained. ” Because—well, because, what does it
all avail ?”
” Nothing, I grant you,” he replied easily, ” or very little, save
to ourselves. You forget us. We have our business. Our fathers
gamed and we talk. Don’t forget us.”
He spoke in railing tones, almost jocosely, and she lifted her
eyebrows a line.
” Ah yes !” she assented. ” Yes, but me and the rest of us,
are we to keep you in your fun ?”
He paused before replying, and noted every particular distinc-
tion in her handsome face. They were at close quarters ; he
leaned a trifle nearer, and lowered his voice to a mocking con-
” Mrs. Rosewarne, you would never blow upon us, surely.”
He feigned to hang in suspense upon her answer ; the proximity
touched him with a queer elation ; she shot upon him one of her
” I can hold my tongue for a friend, Lord Hambleton.”
” Come,” he said, nodding, ” that is better. That is a very
Mrs. Rosewarne considered, smiling the while she continued her
meal. The approach was long, but to manoeuvre heightened
her spirits, and she was now to make a bolder movement.
” But why,” she asked, ” should you expect mercy from a
” I don’t, Heaven knows,” he responded promptly ; ” I wonder
at it, and admire.”
” I think you have had a very long innings,” said she,
thoughtfully, ” and were it in my power I would show no
Lord Hambleton laughed contentedly. ” Oh, well !” he said.
” There is no opportunity for women,” continued Mrs. Rose-
warne, wistfully ; ” there has never been.”
” Who would have suspected that you were ambitious ?” com-
mented Lord Hambleton, archly.
She threw up her jewelled fingers. ” Ambitious !” she said, im-
patiently. ” I am a woman. Where is the use ? That is your
business ; mine is the boudoir, naturally. We are always—in the
field, you call it, don’t you ? Men go to the wickets. My poor
husband would tear out his heart for a seat. He is sound, he is
good, he has wits, he is tolerable ; he would serve excellently well
upon a minor committee, and would never give a shadow of trouble.
He would never ask questions, or soar at Cabinets. Yet it is, I
suppose, ambition of a kind. But me ! What has it to do with me !
A woman knows nothing—of politics, no more than life. I can
enjoy no vicarious pomp. No ! give me the authority myself ;
give me a share in it, Lord Hambleton, and then I will tell you
if I am ambitious !”
She put her head aside, and appeared with this tirade to drop the
subject ; she made a feint of listening to a conversation across
the table. She smiled at the jest that reached her as if she had for-
gotten her companion. And yet she was aware that the aspect
of her face, at which he was staring, was that which best became
her. Lord Hambleton watched the long and delicate lines warm
with soft blood, and his own senses were strangely affected.
” But you would influence him,” he said presently. She came
back with a display of reluctance, and seemed to pause, searching
for his meaning.
” Oh !” she said, ” Heavens ! I have higher aims than that.
Make him Under-Secretary, and he would be worth influencing ;
but poor Freddy—” She shrugged her shoulders and looked
away again, as though impatient of the subject. Perhaps she was
really tired of the conversation, he reflected.
” Well, here we are,” he said, with deprecation in his voice,
” talking all the time on a subject which you professed at the
outset bored you. How unpardonable of me !”
” Bored me !” she said, opening her eyes at him and very
innocently. ” Oh, not talking with any one worth while.”
Lord Hambleton’s eyes dropped, and he was silent. The wine
had fired his blood no less than her beauty. He looked up again,
and met her glance by misadventure. A show of colour flooded
her face ; the pulses beat in her white throat. He did not know
why, but his hands trembled a little, and a bar seemed broken
down between them.
” Upon my soul !” he said, with an excited laugh, ” I believe
you would regenerate us all, if you were in the House !”
” I’m sure I should,” she said gaily. Her heart fluttered in
her side. ” But there is no chance of that ; I could only keep a
salon. Why isn’t it done ? There is no Recamier nowadays ;
there is no Blessington. There is even no Whip’s wife.”
She was conscious of a faint shudder as she made this impudent
stroke, and withdrew in a tremble into herself. She lay back in
her chair, frightened. The words fell opportunely into Lord
Hambleton’s heart ; he had no suspicion that they were deliberate,
and the blood danced lightly along his arteries.
” You would hold a salon bravely,” he said.
” Try me,” she said with the affectation of playful laughter.
He laughed with her, and ” Oh, we shall have everything out
of you by-and-bye,” said he. ” We will bide our time. What
we want just now more than anything is sound men. Now
” Poor Freddy is as sound as Big Ben, I suppose,” said
Mrs. Rosewarne, indifferently.
She felt the blood burning in her cheeks. Their eyes en-
countered. It seemed to him that they had a private secret
together. He scarce knew what it was, so far had his sensations
crowded upon his intelligence ; but some connection, woven
through the clatter of that public meal, held him and her in com-
mon. With her quick wit she was aware of his thought. She
felt flushed with her own beauty. It was not of her husband
he was thinking, and she was aware that he believed she too was
not considering him. The understanding lay between themselves.
She rose triumphant ; her heart spoke in loud acclamations.
” Ah, well,” she said, with a tiny sigh, ” I must wait, then, for
old age to found my salon.”
“No,” he replied, smiling at her; ” and why? We must
have your husband in the House. Then you may begin at
” My husband !” she echoed, as though recalled to some vague
and distasteful consideration.
” Yes. You must have this salon. It may save us.”
She looked at him, as if in doubt. He rose beside her. He
overtopped her by a head, and a certain strength about his
forehead attracted her. Ah ! If this had been her husband !
The regret flashed and was gone.
” Come and tell him,” she said suddenly.
He misinterpreted the fervour in her eyes. ” When ?” he
” To-night,” she murmured.
There was a momentary pause, and then, ” To-night,” he
assented, taking her hand.
Mrs. Rosewarne moved easily within the retinue of her admirers
in the drawing-room. She regarded the company with cool eyes
of triumph. She held their gazes ; the looks they passed upon her
fed her complacency ; she was sensible of her new distinction
among them. And when, later, she returned to her house, she
was still under the escort of success. The excitement ran like
rich wine in her body, and under its stimulus her pale face was
flushed with a tide of colour. She dressed for dinner, radiant, and
crowned, as she conceived, with incomparable splendour. The
presiding enthusiasm of her mind prevailed upon her beauty. In
the glass she considered her looks, and smilingly softened the
glory of her cheeks. Her thoughts reverted with amiable con-
tempt to her husband, and in a measure he too was exalted in her
own triumph. She descended the stairs, and swept into the
dining-room in the full current of her happiness ; and she had a
sudden sense of repulse upon finding the room vacant.
” Where is your master ?” she asked of the servant, who stood
in observant silence at the further end of the room.
Williams had seen him come in an hour ago ; he had retired to
his room. Should he go and inquire ?
” No : we will give him a few minutes,” said she, seating
She held communion with her own surprises. She anticipated
his sensations ; if he had failed with Maclagan, she, at least, had
had better fortune, and for a moment Freddy and she were
wrapt in common fellowship, set upon a common course. But
as the time wore on, and he made no appearance, she grew
restless and fidgeted ; a little annoyance mingled with her
good-humour ; the warmth of her success ebbed away. She
despatched Williams to bring the laggard down, and when he
had returned with the report that he could get no answer, she
picked up her skirts, and with lowering brows herself undertook
Mrs. Rosewarne paused outside her husband’s room, and
knocked. There was no response, and turning the handle of the
door impatiently, she entered. The lamp burned low, and Freddy
lay upon the bed, sprawling in an attitude of graceless comfort.
The noise of his hard breathing sounded in the chamber, and the
odour of strong spirit filled the air. In an access of angry disgust
she shook him by the shoulders, and he lifted a stupid face to her,
his eyes shot with blood.
” Is it you, Dolly ?” he asked thickly.
Her voice rose on a high note of anger.
” Do you know that thevgong has gone this half-hour ? Bah !
You have been drinking, you beast !”
He sat up, staring at her vacantly, and slowly his eyes grew
quick with life and fury.
” And what the devil is it to you if I have ?” he said savagely.
” Why, in hell’s name, don’t you leave me alone ? What are
you doing here ? What are you doing in my room ? It was
you relegated me to this. What are you doing here ?”
” I came, ” said she coldly, ” to call you to dinner ; but since
you have chosen to be the beast you are, I will leave you.”
At the word, she swept upon her heel and was gone. Rose-
warne sat for some minutes dully upon his bed. The flame of
his anger had leapt and died, and he was now hunched up physi-
cally and morally, like a craven : his wits dispersed, his mind
groping in a dreadful space for some palpable occasion of pain.
Presently his reason flowed once more, and piece by piece he
resumed the horrible round of life. Thereafter came a deep,
warm gush of reason and affection. He had been brutal ; he had
been the beast she termed him. He had used her evilly when
she meant but kindly by him. His heart wept for her and for
himself—she was his love and his darling. He would go and
pour forth his tears of regret upon her. She had naturally been
struck to the heart to see him thus unmanned and sapped in the
very foundations of his mind. She did not know. How could
she ? . . . . But he must tell her ! The thought fetched him
to a sudden term in the maudlin consideration of his streaming
emotions. Drawn at this instant before the presence of that
Terror, he trembled and rocked upon his couch. He threw the
gathering thoughts aside. He must not suffer them to cloud his
mind again. He must go forth and enter the room with the
pleading face of a penitent. It was her due ; it was his necessity
—nay, this control was demanded by the very terms of his being.
He set his dress in order ; he combed himself before the glass,
and regarded his own grimacing image. ” I will think of
nothing,” he murmured. ” I am a man. There is nothing
wrong. I can assume that for an hour. I shall go straight to
Dolly. I must ward it all off. It will suffice later. Now ! I
am going to begin—Now ! I will think of nothing. Do you
hear, you fool ! Oh, you damned, silly fool ! You know it is
fatal if you don’t. Stop. No figures ; no worries. Just thrust
them aside. It can’t matter that two and two make four when
they ought to make five. Now then ! From this moment I
stop. I am a man, ” he explained to his grimacing image. ” No
more figures. I will begin. No worries ! Now ! ” He pulled
out his watch. ” In five seconds I will start. ” He saw the
hand jump round. ” Now ! ” and then in the ear of his brain a
thin voice cried, softly insistent: ” Five thousand and that odd
two hundred. Is that all right ? Go back on it. Give them
just a glance. ” He paused, but the blood in his head stood still.
At the cross ways he trembled, dazed with the conflict of the two
desires. ” Well, one glance.”
At that the whole body of his madness rolled back upon him
through the rift. He threw up his hands, and, hiding his face in
the bed-clothes, groaned. ” Now ! ” he said again, flinging himself
peremptorily to his feet. He straightened his figure. ” Now !”
As if with a wild, reckless motion, he pulled to the door of his
mind, and shutting his eyes, marched out of the room, laughing
mechanically. ” Dorothy, Dorothy, Dorothy !” he muttered
under his breath.
Rosewarne entered the dining-room with a quick tread and a
moving galvanic smile.
” Dolly, forgive me,” he said ; ” I am late. Where are you ?
Oh, Williams, some fish. That will do.”
He started to talk in a very hurried manner, but with humble
cheerfulness. His wife stared at him coldly, answering in short,
colourless sentences. But he made amends for her reticence with
a continuous stream of talk. He chattered freely, and he ate
ravenously. He rambled on through numberless topics with no
apparent connection. All the reserves of his nature were enrolled
in that gallant essay to fence him from the Horror of his life, and
hedge him safely about with casual trifles. Of a sudden he saw
things clear about him. A certain bright wit shone in his
soliloquies ; he spoke with that incoherence and irresponsibility
which begets sometimes effective phrasing. His wife considered
him ; the novelty of his conversation struck her, its frivolity took
her with admiration. Slowly the barriers of her own reserve
broke down, the sense of satisfaction in herself grew upon
her, and by degrees her good-humour returned. She joined
in his talk, laughed a little, was inspired by his mood into newer,
fresher, wilder hopes. No word was said about the scene in the
bedroom ; it had dropped into past history, and their feet were
set to the future. And when Williams was gone, she turned
swiftly upon him, her zeal showing in her eyes.
” And now, Freddy,” she said, ” tell me all about Maclagan.”
His face started into haggard lines ; he lowered his eyes, and,
with a short laugh, shook his head.
” Later ; not now,” he said. ” You begin.”
She laughed also. ” I have seen Lord Hambleton,” she said
with a burst of excitement. ” He is coming to-night.” And
watched upon his face for the effect.
” Oh, you clever girl !” he cried, his eyes smiling, his lips
quivering slightly. ” You clever girl.”
Again she laughed. It almost seemed to her at that moment
that she loved him.
” Ah, you would think so, if you knew how I managed it.”
” But I know it, I know it,” he cried, seizing her hand across
the table. ” You are as clever as you are beautiful.”
He hardly recalled the point to which their conversation related ;
he was aware only of her proximity and her kindly eyes. She
returned the pressure of his ringers faintly, and looked at him
” You look tired, Freddy,” she said. ” I’m afraid you’ve had
a very wearisome day.”
” Yes,” he assented with a tiny laugh. ” I have had a bad
” Tell me,” she said abruptly, ” what about Maclagan ?”
He rose. ” Come into the study, then,” he said in another
voice. ” I can tell you better there.”
She followed him, laying a hand lightly upon his shoulder. She
took her seat within the comfortable armchair, stretching herself
out, with her feet to the fire and the red light upon her face and
bosom. Rosewarne leaned his elbow on the mantelpiece.
” Well ?” she asked presently in a tone of invitation.
He started. ” Dolly,” he said slowly, ” supposing I were to
” Good gracious, Freddy, don’t talk nonsense,” she interrupted
on his halting phrases. ” We haven’t come to talk about foolish
things like that.”
He made no answer, but stared harder into the fire. A sense
of irritation grew upon Mrs. Rosewarne. Had he failed in his
mission. If he had, at least she had succeeded in hers, and the
thought consoled her.
” Now, let me hear all about it. Do be quick,” she said.
He turned to her suddenly. ” Dolly, you must answer me ;
please answer me,” he cried in agitation. ” You could not bear
my death, could you ? Say you couldn’t.”
” Of course not,” she replied sharply. ” Why in the name of
all that is decent will you harp on that ? Don’t be morbid.”
” It will have to come to that,” he said brokenly.
” Pooh ! Don’t be foolish,” she retorted. She regarded him
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critically. Even in the red light the colour of his face, which had
fallen into ugly lines, repelled her. ” Come, what is it ? Is any-
thing the matter with you ? Have you seen your doctor ? What
are you keeping from me ?”
The questions ran off her tongue sharply, even acrimoniously.
She had anew the sense of irritation that he had chosen this hour
to be ill.
” No,” he replied in a blank voice, ” I suppose I’m all right. I
don’t know. I’ve been—yes—I’m ill with the horrible trouble.
I’m—” He fell quickly upon his knees, burying his face in
her gown. ” Oh, Dolly, Dolly,” he sobbed, ” I have ruined you,
and you don’t know it. It is all over—all over.”
Her eyes opened in alarm, but she did not move. ” What
nonsense are you talking, Freddy ?” she asked in an uncertain
voice which rang harshly. ” You’re ill. You’ve been overwork-
ing. You mustn’t. What foolishness !”
She laughed faintly, with embarrassment, and almost mechani-
cally put out a hand and touched his hair as though vaguely to
reassure him of his mistake ; while all the time her heart thumped
on and her mind was wondering in a daze.
At her touch he raised his head, and clutched her, crying, ” Ah,
you do love me, Dolly. You do love me. I knew you loved
me. I knew you would be sorry for me.”
She sat motionless, fear reaching out arms for her heart. Slowly
she was beginning to understand.
” What is it that you have done ?” she asked in a dry voice.
He pressed her hand tightly, crushing her fingers. ” I have
taken money,” he whispered, ” trust money. I am ruined. I
must go to prison, unless I—”
She moistened her lips, impassive as ever.
” But you do love me,” he repeated, clinging to her. ” Yes,
you do love me, Dolly. Even if I have to do—that thing, you
love me still.”
Through all her being ran a repulsion for this creature at
her knees, but she was clogged with her emotions and sat
” Dolly, Dolly,” he cried pathetically. ” I shall have to do it.
I know I shall have to do it—I—” He looked up, gulping
down his sobs, as though seeking in her face for a contradiction.
He knew the warm tears would fall upon him. Through his
blurred vision he saw her mutely, indistinctly, raise her arms,
extracting her hand from his grasp. He felt—he knew—he
hoped—Ah, she would throw them about his neck and draw
him close in a passionate, pitiful embrace.
” Dolly, Dolly,” he whispered, ” I shall have to die.”
With a rough movement she thrust him from her and got upon
” Die !” she exclaimed in a voice full of ineffable bitterness.
” Die ! Oh, my God, yes. That is the least you can do.”
He lay where he had fallen to her push, huddled in a shapeless
heap, stirring faintly. It was to her eyes as if some vermin upon
which she had set her foot still moved with life. There was left
in him no power of thought, no capacity of emotion. He was
dimly conscious of misery, and he knew that she was standing by.
Far away a tune sounded, and reverberated in his ears ; it was the
singing of the empty air. She was staring upon him with disgust
” Poor worm !” she said in tense low tones ; and then her eyes
alighted on her heaving bosom and the glories of her gown. The
revulsion struck her like a blow, and she reeled under it. ” You
devil !” she cried. ” You have ruined my life.”
The sound of those sharp words smote upon his brain, and
whipped his ragged soul. He rose suddenly to his feet, his face
blazing with fury.
” Damn you,” he cried passionately. ” I have loved you. I have
sold my soul for you. I have ruined my mind for you. Damn
you, Dorothy. And you have no words for me. Damn you.”
His voice trailed away into a tremulous sob, and he stood
contemplating her with fixed eyes. She laughed hardly, with-
drawing her skirts from his vicinity. His gaze wandered from
her, and went furtively towards the mantelpiece. She followed it,
and saw a revolver lying upon the marble.
” Bah !” she said. ” You have not the courage.”
At that moment a knock fell upon the door ; after a pause she
moved and opened it.
” Lord Hambleton, ma’am,” said Williams. ” He is in the
Breathing hard, she looked round at her husband. Rosewarne’s
dull eyes were fixed upon her. They interceded with her; they
fawned upon her.
” I will be there in a moment,” she said clearly. Rosewarne
moved slowly to the table and sat down, resting his head in his
hands. He made no protest ; if he realised anything now, he
realised that he had expected this. The door shut to behind her ;
a dull pain started in the base of his brain ; into the redoubts of
his soul streamed swiftly the forces of sheer panic.
Mrs. Rosewarne entered the drawing-room, the tail of her dress
rustling over the carpet. Lord Hambleton turned with this sound
in his ears, stirring him pleasantly.
” Well,” said he, smiling, ” you see I’ve come.”
She gave him her hand and paused, confronting him. Her heart
thumped like a hammer upon her side ; her face was flushed with
colour, and her lips quivered.
” It is good of you,” she said tremulously ; ” won’t you sit
He did not heed her invitation, but shot a shrewd glance at her.
Her voice startled him ; the discomposure of her appearance
arrested his eyes. He wondered what had happened. It could
not be that his visit was the cause of this confusion. And yet he
noted it with a thrill of satisfaction, such as he had experienced in
the colloquy at Mrs. Charters’s.
” You are very good to look at like this,” he allowed himself to
say. He picked up the thread of their communion where it had
been dropped earlier that day. She was marvellously handsome ;
he had never admired a woman so much since his youth. The
faint light spreading from the lamps illumined her brilliant face
and threw up her figure in a kind of twilight against the wall.
Her heart palpitated audibly ; it seemed to her that she had a
sudden unreasonable desire to laugh. The squalid gloom of that
chamber beyond lifted ; it seemed remote and accidental. She was
here with the comfortable eyes of this man upon her, contem-
plating her with admiration. She was not a parcel of that tragedy
outside. She smiled broadly.
” Why, the better for my salon,” she said.
What had excited her ? he asked himself. ” Ah ! we will
arrange all that,” he answered with a familiar nod.
” You will ?” she asked eagerly—breathlessly.
” Why, certainly,” he replied. ” I think we can manage it—
She laughed aloud this time. ” Yes, both of us together,” she
He met her eyes. Was it wine ? he asked. Or was it—?
Lord Hambleton’s body tingled with sensation. He had not
suspected that matters had progressed so intimately between them.
Almost involuntarily he put out a hand towards her. She laughed
awkwardly, and he drew it back.
” You should have had it long ago,” he said. ” You have thrown
away a chance.”
” My life, you mean,” she cried, breaking in upon his melli-
fluous tones with a harsher note.
She shifted her head towards the door as if listening for a sound.
Her action struck him for the moment as ungainly.
” Things do not always fall out as we want them,” he said
” Not as you want them ?” she asked, coming back to regard
him. ” Why, what more do you want ?”
He watched her from his quiet eyes, which suddenly lost their
equable expression. To him she had always appeared a woman of
dispassion, but now the seeming surrender in her mind, the revolu-
tion in her character, flashed upon him with an extreme sense of
emotion. His heart beat faster.
” I think you know,” he said softly, and reaching forth, took
Swiftly she turned ; a look of dread rushed into her eyes. All on
a sudden the transactions of that neighbouring room leapt into
proximity. She saw Freddy handling the revolver ; she watched
him lean over the table and cock it in the light ; she saw him —
She gave a cry, and moved a step towards the door, with a
” What is it ?” asked Lord Hambleton in alarm. ” You are ill.
You—” She made no answer, and he seized her hand again.
” Let me ring for a glass of wine,” he whispered.
Mrs. Rosewarne laughed loudly in his face.
” No, no,” she said ; ” it is nothing. Pray, don’t. I shall be
She looked at him, and then turned her ear to the door again,
listening with a white face. He watched her anxiously, but in his
own mind the reason of her perturbation was clear. The thought
was sweet to him.
” Well,” said he ; ” and now to business.”
” Business !” she echoed, and moved quickly to him, ” I —
Please, you must excuse me, Lord Hambleton. My husband is
ill. Do you mind ? I—”
He rose abruptly. ” I am very sorry,” he said ; ” I will not
trouble you, then, just now.”
He took his hat. She had turned away and was hearkening with
all her senses for that report that did not come. He bit his lips.
Perhaps she had been overstrained. He could scarce say what
feeling ran uppermost in his mind. She hurried him to the door,
accompanying him herself.
” Must you go ?” she asked, stupidly, on the doorstep.
He looked at her ; perhaps she really was ill. But she was very
beautiful. She did not hear his answer. The rough wind blew
through the open door and scattered her hair and her skirts. Lord
Hambleton went down the steps. She watched him go. At that
moment, somehow, a great revulsion overwhelmed her. She had
listened, and there had been no discharge. What a fool she had
been ! Of course, he had no courage. She had the desire to rush
after Lord Hambleton and call him back. She had tortured herself
idly ; she had played a silly part in a melodrama. She recalled
Lord Hambleton’s ardent gaze. There was a man ! Ah, if this
thing were not fastened about her neck ! She stole back along
the hall—iofurious. Once more she was confronted with the squalor
of her position. Her indignation rose higher ; she could see that
pitiful creature crying for mercy, crying for affection. Bah !
He was too cowardly to die. Burning with the old anger, she
crossed to the study and opened the door. She would have it out
with him ; they should understand their position. With Lord
Hambleton the dignified prospects of her life had vanished, and she
was flung back upon a mean and ignominious lot.
Rosewarne was seated in the armchair ; the revolver rested where
it had lain upon the mantelpiece. He made no movement to
rise as she returned, and she stood for a second looking down upon
him from behind with curling lips. A bottle of whisky and a glass
stood upon the table at his elbow. It was probable that he had
drunk himself to sleep.
” Are you awake?” she called sharply. He made no sign.
She bent over angrily and shook him.
His head fell to her touch, and from his fingers a little phial
tumbled upon the floor.
Watson, H. B. Marriott. “The Dead Wall.” The Yellow Book, vol. 6, July 1895, pp. 221-248. Yellow Book Digital Edition, edited by Dennis Denisoff and Lorraine Janzen Kooistra, 2010-2014. Yellow Nineties 2.0, Ryerson University Centre for Digital Humaniries, 2020. https://1890s.ca/YBV6_watson_dead/