A Pen-and-ink Effect
By Frances E. Huntley
HE was writing a letter, and, as his pen jerked over the paper,
he smiled with a fatuous softness. She had betrayed her-
self so helplessly—had cared so much. And he ? Well, yes, he
had cared, too, a little ; who could have been quite unresponsive to
that impetuous inquiring tenderness, that ardent generous admira-
tion ? He remembered it all, with amused regretful vanity—the
summer evenings by the window, the gay give-and-take of their
talk, the graver moments when their eyes met, and hers spoke
more eloquently than words. ” Eager tell-tales of her mind “—
how often he had quoted Matthew Arnold’s line when he thought
of her eyes ! It might have been written for her ; and when he
had told her so, she had not been angry. Little goose ! She ought
to have been, of course—but he might say anything, he knew.
Well ! they had been pretty days, those ; ” a fragrant memory “
—(she had taught him some of her phrases)—and now they were
over. Quite over ! The involuntariness of his sigh pleased him,
and the reluctance with which he took up his pen again seemed to
complete the romance of the moment.
She knew already. That was certain ; he had sent a telegram
on his wedding-day, thinking it might not be quite so bad if she
knew he had thought of her even then. And now he was writing.
Not to her—dear, no ! he had too much tact, knowledge of the
world, for that, he hoped ; but to her father. They had been
” pals ” ; he was so much older than she, ” quite fatherly,” he used
to say, delighting in her conscious look. . . . . So it was natural,
quite natural, for him to write and tell him how it had happened.
For in some ways it was a queer business, not quite what had
been expected of him, and yet—what every one had expected.
That he knew, and it galled him sorely. It was hardly a mésal-
liance, but—a mistake ? He felt that it might be called one ; a
horrid saying jingled in his ears, ” There’s no fool like an old
fool “—and yet he had chosen it so, always guessed that it would
end so. Romantic ? No ! There was the sting—not even
But she ? Would she look at it in that way ? Would she
smile and think that he had made a mess of it, compare herself
mentally—her fastidious high-bred self—with his bride and—pity
him ? He moved restlessly. No, she wouldn’t ; he knew her
better. She would mind—mind horribly. Her mouth would set
itself, her eyes would look bright and pained—oh ! she was brave
enough ; but she would be silent, sadder than her wont, and—
envious ? His smile grew broader. Poor little dear !
Well, his letter would be some comfort. He had finished it ;
now to read it over. . . . . Yes ! all was admirably conveyed, the
regret, the remembrance, the veiled messages to her, the (he
rather liked this part)—the hinted depreciation of his choice, the
insinuated unhappiness and foreboding—and then the allusion to
” his wife ” . . . . in fancy he heard the sharp quick breath, saw
the darkening of the blue eyes, the pain of the firm little mouth.
. . . . But perhaps she might not read it at all ; men didn’t hand
letters round. He must provide for that. It was written for her,
she must see it. How should he manage ? Ah ! that was it !
” Your daughter will help you to make out my scrawl ” in a
prominent postscript ; that was clear enough. Now to post it.
The end of the little episode, so delicate, so transient ! Men
were rather brutal, weren’t they ? Well, when girls fell in love
and were so charming ! It was a shame, though, he thought,
complacently. Poor little dear ! The letter slid into the
* * * * *
Everything was going on just the same—and he was married.
But then she had always known it must end so—every one had
known it. There were two sorts of knowing, though, she thought,
It all seemed quite natural ; even having no letter to expect
when the post came in seemed so natural, and it had been the
roseate moment of the day. Did everything happen so ? It was
odd. Browning’s poignant question came into her head : ” Does
truth sound bitter as one at first believes ?” She used to imagine
he had been wrong for once (” that omniscient Browning of
yours “), but now that she knew. . . . .
How was it ? She could laugh quite naturally, read and
interested in her book. Stay, though ! Yesterday she had been
reading a story in which the heroine had reminded her of herself,
and had, of course, loved and been beloved. She had shut that
book hastily and taken up a volume of essays, but soon she had re-
opened and devoured it with envious, aching eyes.
That was the day after the telegram had come. It had stung her
a little, though it had pleased her too. So even at that moment he
had thought of her ; but how sure he had been ! . . . . It galled her ;
and, besides, it seemed to proclaim it all to the curious eyes around
her. They were her own people, and she loved them and they
her ; but their eyes were curious. She caught stolen glances, inter-
change of looks, imagined them talking of her, ” Does she mind ? “
” Not so much as I expected ” ; oh, the torturing espionage of
family life. If she could only be quite alone ! She recalled the
scene. From her bedroom window she had seen the telegraph boy,
had thought nothing of it, telegrams were so frequent.” Effie !
Effie !” First her youngest brother, wide-eyed, observant, when
the room-door burst open ; then her father, half-understanding, but
innately unsympathetic for ” love-affairs,” gratified, too, at the
remembrance of him, careless or unconscious of the intolerable
under-meaning of the message. Something had told her what it
was, what the pink scrawl contained ; she had felt a burning rebel-
ion, a hard hatred of somebody or something.
” A telegram ? from whom ? Her voice was sharp and cold.
” From Luttrell ?” This was one of the things she loathed—
that she called him ” Luttrell,” tout court ; her morbid sense of
humour saw the painful absurdity of it—to speak so of a man you
cared for ! Incredible ! yet she did it. Was anything in life
what you had once fancied it ?
” From Luttrell ?” Bravado had forced the name from her—
and if it should not be from him ? Even now she could recall the
lash of the stinging thought.
” Yes—from Luttrell. Funny fellow ! fancy his thinking of
sending it ! Like to see it ?”
She had taken it with a laugh at the ” funny fellow,” had read
it . . . .
” So he’s really married. Well, she’s a pretty girl, and a clever
girl ; I daresay he’ll be very happy. A very clever girl.”
How often, in her wayward moments, she had laughed with
Luttrell over the “canonisation” of the newest fiancée or bride !
” She had fulfilled the whole duty of woman !” she used to
declare with ironic grandiosity, and he used to smile admiringly at
her spirited nonsense—and now it was he himself ! But she must
” Yes, she’s pretty. Clever ? Well, I never had the pleasure
of her acquaintance.” The tiny thrust had relieved her a little.
” And where do they go for their honeymoon, I wonder ?”
It was said : ” they,” ” their honeymoon.” Had her voice
really sounded so thin and cold ? She had felt just like it, ” thin
and cold,” a meagre, desolate sort of creature. ” Meagre !” how
descriptive ! Her lips curled into a small morbid smile. She
remembered the odd sensation.
Well, that was over ; the telegram-scene was two days ago now,
and she was going down to lunch in that odd, dreamy sort of way,
as if she was walking on air—everything was so natural, yet so
unreal !…. ” The post just in ? What letters ?” she said,
carelessly, passing through the hall.
” One from Luttrell.”
” Why, Effie, Luttrell doesn’t seem absorbed in his bride,” her
eldest brother said, reading his own letters. ” Strikes me he’d
She could have struck him—but this must be answered in its
own vein. Would it never end ? ” Bored on the honeymoon, I
suppose ; they say every one is. “
” He wouldn’t be, though of course he’d pretend he was—”
her father laughed, opening the envelope. ” Dear, dear ! what a
scrawl ! I can’t read it . . . . Effie, you read it out.”
” No, indeed. I can’t bear reading things aloud.”
” Well, I can’t. Take it, and read it to yourself, then ?”
” You’d better both read it.”
” Over his shoulder,” one of the brothers said, mockingly.
Well, if it had to be done.
She stood and read it over her father’s shoulder.
It was long, illegible ; she spelt it out slowly to her wondering,
faltering heart. This was what he had written—this ?
” A nice letter, very friendly. Eh, Effie ?”
” Yes, very—nice. Very—friendly.”
In her room at last. ” He wrote that ? That
Her eyes met the wide dark ones in the mirror.
” Poor girl ! oh, the poor, poor girl !” The mirror looked
clouded, vanished quite, grew clear again.
” To think I could ever have loved him !”
For a moment she hid her shamed, white face.
” Feel up for a game of tennis, Ronald, Sydney, Edith !” her
voice pealed out. One must do something to work off this mad
joyous thrill of freedom, liberty . . . . looking forward !
She dashed down the stairs with a wild whirl of frills and lace-
Huntley, Frances E [pseud. of Ethel Colburn Mayne]. “A Pen-and-ink Effect.” The Yellow Book, vol. 6, July 1895, pp. 286-91. Yellow Book Digital Edition, edited by Dennis Denisoff and Lorraine Janzen Kooistra, 2010-2014. Yellow Nineties 2.0, Ryerson University Centre for Digital Humanities, 2020. https://1890s.ca/YBV6_huntley_pen/